apistakkisah

I am just an...

 a - average

 p - person 

 i - in 

 s - survival of 

 t - time 

 a - and 

 k - knowing 

 k - knowledge 

 i - is 

 s - sometimes 

 a - accessed through 

 h - heart!!! 

                                                           

      

 i'm just apistakkisah

the night

The night.

Dark.
Quiet.
Me. You.
No more pretend.
The night might be dark;
But i can see you.
No more hide.
The dark might be quiet;
But i can hear you.
Dark-quiet-night.
Will ever...
Will never...
Will be...
Night!

I saw... I learn...

o I saw strong woman with a gas stove on top of her head

• I learnt that woman do not have equality and carry out hard work tasks

o I saw little kids swimming happily in the sea and playing with foreigners

• I learnt that children are trusting and vulnerable or at risk

o I saw happy African people and smiling faces, friendly!

• I learnt that their smiles hide their poverty

o I saw selling and buying in the busy traffic

• I learnt how hard it is to earn money

o I saw the popularity of Coca-Cola in developing countries!

• I learnt how multi national companies have a powerful monopoly and make money from poor people

o I saw many things in Ghana

• I learnt many things about myself and how I might play a role there in the future

Say Hello to the World

Want to be remembered or doesn't care?



I managed to write a song while I was in Ghana. This is the version singing and performing by the Ghanaian children! The best!

sunshine bright in the morning

little birds flying in the sky

flowers dancing with the wind

take a breath and let start to sing

taking tro-tro to Bojo beach

swimming and making sandcastle

laughing and cheering with my friends

happy day happy life begin

say hello to the world

open your eyes open your mind

nothing to lose when you try

yeah yeah

say hello to the world

sharing the love together

let's pray for peace forever

yeah yeah

ps: amazed by the Ghanaian children ability to learn songs!

Culture Shock!!!

A few days ago, I received an email from my former lecturer in University of Hertfordshire, Bernice. She wanted me to share some experiences of new things that I experienced since arriving in UK. She wanted to share it in her class and here are the culture shock! :D

Culture Shock!

After a couple of visits to the UK, this year I have the opportunity to study and stay here for a year. I’m going to write something on culture shock. This does not really represent all Malaysians and some things are just my silliness! :D These are a few things that have amazed me! :D Chill!

Coffee or tea?

Everywhere you go or stop people will ask you if you want a cup of coffee or tea. Even where ever you walk you will see people holding a cup of coffee in their hands. I know I like coffee too, but isn’t it too much? Haha… I want MILO sometimes! Oopppsss

Walk fast!

Everyone here seems to walk faster. Maybe everyone just wants to get warm or arrive at the destination as soon as possible. I don’t think Malaysians will walk very fast, as in Malaysia it is hot and humid and you end up getting sweaty and tired (lame excuse here).

Walking in the rain

It was raining on the second day in Newcastle and windy also. But because I had induction week, I needed to go to the university. I brought my umbrella, coat, jacket, even a rain coat. Believe it or not, when I was outside, I saw people just walking and not noticing the weather whilst I was freezing like crazy! In Malaysia everyone avoids rain; you will even get sick if it rains on you! Oh! One more thing, even in the night time you can see some girls wearing very short skirts walking in the cold city!

Don’t be fooled by the bright sun

The day after that rainy day, I could see the sunshine again. What a relief! So, I just wore my t-shirt and my skinny pants (lol!). I went out to go to the class again. It was fine for a while but I couldn’t believe it was windy and still cold even in the afternoon. What? In Malaysia if the sun is as bright you will be sweating like crazy.

Directions

I know I am very bad with maps. So, I do not even have to say about this. People keep providing me with so many maps and directions. In the end I end up lost! Things just look very different with the mix of old and new buildings …

No water hose?

If I can avoid using the toilet, believe me I will do it! Every time it is toilet time, there are so many things to figure out. The most difficult thing is when there is no water hose in the toilet. What you will find is just a bundle of tissue. You had better go to Malaysia and check out the toilets there …lol

Party all night!

People just party every night! Especially during freshers’ week. Even in my flat, every room looks busy with party. In fact, nobody asked me to join them (lol!).

The food

In Malaysia, it feels like I can eat anything and grab anything that I want to eat from the shopping mall. But it is not heaven like that here. It seems like I need to be really careful every time to find halal food. In the end, I am going for the vegetarian choice! Lucky me…

Banana story

I bought some bananas and apples from Tesco. I was so happy! (lol!). So, I went back to my flat and went to kitchen to keep them in the refrigerator. I opened the refrigerator and put my bananas and apples in it. Next day, I opened the refrigerator and took out my apples and bananas. They were as hard as rock! Lol! I realized that I had put them in the freezer. I am used to the refrigerator with the freezer on the top, so, I made a mistake here…lol!

International student…..egh…International accent!

It is great that studying here means I can meet with so many people from around the world. As English is my second language, I can practise using it here. As soon as I came here, I just realized that it is not that easy to practise. There are so many types of English to cope with. Even UK people themselves sound very different depending which part they come from. Then at the same time I need to listen carefully to the people who come from other countries where English is maybe their second, third or fourth - or whatever number is relevant - language. Oh, by the way, I also need to catch up on the content! What a great experience right? :D

Automatic

Sometimes I do believe that robots have already taken over this world. It seems like everywhere I go in the university I will go through automatic doors. Swipe your card here, swipe your card there… I even saw A4 paper pasted on the door saying “Automatic Door”. I still cannot get used to it and am very nervous that I will slap my face on the door….haha

No complaints. I’m the one who chose to come and study here. So, let’s just face it then. By the way, I think it is enough to write a few things for now because I believe I can write more and more and more. Cheers! (I copy this ‘cheers’ word from a guy on a bike who said cheers to me after I gave way to him. lol)

p/s: fried rice evryday at the moment...lol! Easy to cook and I can put anything I want in it! :D

Bangun Berdiri (A song)

The examination is just around the corner. My year 6 pupils look not so motivated. So, i came out with an idea to create a song. i do not know you will like it or not, but at least they like it. I think sometimes we just need something to relate to. And I guess this song will help them a bit! :D

The video is made like that because it's easier to record, and it is also easier to show to the kids and repeat as much as I can to them in the class in order to teach the song. I cannot play any musical instrument so sorry for the not so good voice! :D Wahahaha! Next time when the kids practice it with some musical instruments, I believe it will sound better and I post it again :D Just listen to it first, maybe you can relate too ;)

Bangun berdiri...

Ku simpan di dalam lubuk hati

Suatu hasrat yang tersembunyi

Akankah menjadi realiti

Atau sekadar mimpi

Kusedar siapa diri ini

Insan biasa di dunia sepi

Namun Semangat juang berapi

Segala ku harungi

Akanku tempuhi onak duri

Lautan ribut kan ku renangi

Setinggi gunung akanku daki

Mengejar mimpi...

Akanku ukir jadikan pelangi

Kejayaan yang cantik menghiasi

Walau tersungkur jatuh berkali

Ku bangun berdiri

Tak seindah apa di pandangan

Tak terbayang di akal fikiran

Tapi takkan kau keseorangan

Hadapi kehidupan

p/s: Whatever! :D

it's true, it's true, it's you!

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Start life as usual like you always do

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Or think differently and break through

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
The one that need to find the clue

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Move now when the sky is blue

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Put yourself in other people's shoe

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Don’t worry when people started to “boo”

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Learning your life, like you learnt in school

It’s true, it’s true, it’s you
Never give up, everyone else is struggling too

It’s true
It’s true
It's YOU!

p/s: Betul... Betul... Kamu!

tatkala kusentuh tanah itu...

Tatkala kusentuh tanah itu

Jantungku mula berdebar kencang

Airmata mula berlinang

Sayu terasa..

sedih..

hiba..

Tatkala kusentuh tanah itu

kenangan muncul di layar minda

sungguh tak tertahan

deras airmataku mengalir

Nek,

Mungkin kita tak selalu bersama

namun melihat tubuhmu terbujur kaku

menatap wajahmu

mencium pipimu

tak sama lagi seperti dulu

Nek,

pergimu membawa kenangan yang takkan terlupakan

kekal dalam sejarah hidupku

mengenalimu

membawa diriku terus berdiri hingga saat ini

Tatkala kusentuh tanah itu,

masih merah

haruman mawar masih mewangi

kutinggalkan dirimu

dengan penuh syahdu...refleksi hati, refleksi diri

Dirimu menyahut seraun Ilahi

kurelakan, kudoa agar dirimu ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang beriman

p/s: Alfatihah buat Allahyarhamah Eshah bt. Hamid

I'm a believer!

I can write
but I'm not a good writer,

I can sing

but I'm not a Superstar!

I like to jump and dance

but I'm not a good dancer

I can run

but I'm not a good athelete

I can draw

but I'm not a good artist

I can do whatever I want to do

but I know I'm not expert

So, who am i?

I'm just a believer

I believe in what I'm doing

and I'm doing what I believe! full stop

p/s: Going crazy!

Sing me to sleep

Sing a nice song

Sing a peaceful song

Sing a lovely song

Sing for me and make me sleep



Sing me to sleep

So that I can have a dream

A beautiful dream

Sing me to sleep

so that my mind can stop thinking

thingking about me

thinking about u

thinking about them

thinking about all the thing

I just need to ignore the reality

Sing me to sleep

let the melody bring me to a new world

let me dance gracefully and follow the rhythm

let me be whatever I want to be

Sing me to sleep

p/s: take a very long time to finish this...but still not satisfied sometimes :P hahaha ... just don't care...it's mine :P

Dear Mom, Dear Dad

Dear Mom, Dear Dad

I write this down to make sure that I say out everything in my heart for both of you. So that in the future, I have things to be my reference even though I know this feelings will always be the same and will grow more and more and more...

Dear Mom, Dear Dad,

I know whatever I said here will not be enough to say everything that I feel to both of you but let me try my best

Dear Mom, Dear Dad,

Thank you for all the things that you both sacrifice for me. Thank you for all the things that you both done to make sure I will grow up well. Thank you for all the efforts that you both made since the day I born until now

Dear Mom, Dear Dad,

Thank you, thank you thank you.I know if I write down thousands or millions or many more thank you it will never be enough. It is more than that...more than everything...but thank you Mom, thank you Dad

Dear Mom,

I love to see you smiling. I love your cooking. I love the way you support me, motivate me and I love you.

Dear Dad,

You work hard, not talking much but that just the way you are, you special in everything you do and I love you.

Dear Mom, Dear Dad,

Sorry for ignored some of your advises sometimes.... Sorry for broke your heart and sorry for any mistakes that I done... It just difficult to control my desire sometimes...but I always know that your advises are the best for me

Dear Mom, Dear Dad,

I want you both to know that you are always in my mind. I pray for your happiness everyday and everytime....

because
I love you Mak, I love you Abah
will all my heart :) hugs

p/s: Am ready?

A letter to myself

Dear Hafiz,

I'm writing to you just to remind you about anything that will happen in the future. I want you to be brave, I want you to have lots of patient and I want you to always be strong.

Dear Hafiz,

Whatever you do please do it honestly, whatever you think, please think carefully, whatever decision that you make please make it wisely. You are who you are. So, always be yourself...you don't need to pretend.

Dear Hafiz,

Sometimes things will be difficult, situation will be hard to handle, things will turn upside down. Don't worry, just go through the day because when everything finish...you will realise that you learn a lot.

Dear Hafiz,

You have your own opinion. So do others. Respect yourself and respect others. We all are just human being that special created with our own mind and our own style. Let us celebrate it!

Dear Hafiz,

When good things come to you, don't forget to be thankful. Share it with others. Greedy, selfish please put it away from you. It just make your heart grow darker. do you want that happen?

Dear Hafiz,

Trust your heart, respect your feeling, love yourself. Whatever you heard and if its hurt you, be strong, yes you can! yes you always can. remember how much things that you already face before!

Dear Hafiz,

Let's be helpful! Lets's do it! You can! and You always can! GO! GO! hahaha

p/s: be careful with water :(

I close my eyes and I pray

I close my eyes and I pray

My heart will be honest

My intention will not change

I close my eyes and I pray

My heart will stay strong

My strength will wipe away my tears

I close my eyes and I pray

All the things that make me sad

please go away

I close my eyes and I pray

I am walking in the right way

Searhing the answer

Moving towards the light

I close my eyes and I pray

Bad things just motivations

to move forward, to learn

I close my eyes and I pray

I will not give up

Although I always lose or fall down

I open my eyes and I see

All the things are still the same as before

but deep in my heart

I know I can always

close my eyes and pray

p/s: when the going gets tough, the tough gets going

Bangun Adikku (Wake up My Dear) :P

Bangun adikku

Dongak kepalamu

Pandang ke puncak gunung

Tanam dalam hatimu

Puncak itu pasti kau tawan

Bangun adikku
Bangun dari lenamu
Bangun dari kebiasaanmu
Mari ubah citamu

Dari rendah tanah dikaki, menjulang ke langit tinggi

Bangun adikku

Bangun dari jatuh

Jatuh bukan gagal

Tapi pelajaran dalam kehidupan

Kau pasti lebih tabah

Kau pasti lebih gagah

Kau takkan mudah mengalah

Bangun adikku

Kini masa kau mengorak langkah

Langkahmu kini langkah perwira

Bukan lagi langkah si gundah gulana

Bangun adikku

Aku pasti kau kan bersinar

Umpama permata di dasar lautan

Walau seluas lautan

Sinarmu menyilau mempersona penglihatan

Bangun adikku, Bangun!

p/s: I hope that I can translate this poem into english...haha...just write it spontaneously ;)