Photo albums

Last Raya holiday, when I was home and enjoying time with family, I had a chance to flip through the old photo albums. I was busy making some Raya cookies (believe it or not) at that time when suddenly I opened a cabinet and found the albums. Luckily for us because my eldest sister likes to collect photos and has keep them in nice albums. So the photos are in well condition.

Flipping through the album with my sisters and brothers and my mom and my dad, we were laughing and joking a lot. Looking at how beautiful my mom was when she was young (she is still insanely beautiful now) and my dad with his handsome smile and long hair, made us appreciate so much what we have.

Growing up in a simple family background, my dad was a lorry driver and my mom worked for a while in a 'kuah rojak' factory. I remember those days very well. I remember my mom and dad picking me up from the hostel with a lorry. Have you had that experience? aha... I also remember growing up with 6 siblings. We were a loud and noisy family. Yeah, we are a big family. Fighting and quarreling with each other is a main part of siblings happiness! ahaha...but also we play along sometime...aha...

Now, to see that everyone survived the childhood phase and has started to stand on their own feet, I'm so proud of my parents. As much as we live in a simple life, in a small house next to a big wood factory, it is amazing that we all survived and always stick together through hard and good time.

Love our family okay. They are the one that at the end will always be there for us! Don't forget to sometimes flip through your own family album too okay :)

PS: and I'm glad I have my Welsh family too!

You find your happiness in different ways

Sometimes you might be thinking about the way you do things and the way that things happen to you. The decisions that you made or the decisions you did not make. Will they give you happiness? Or will they bring you sadness?

Guess what? Always remember that you will find your way soon. In different ways from other people. Happiness is so subjective so no one knows what makes other people happy. You might be happy about something but someone might be sad because of the same thing.

The problem is when the community sometimes forgets this. People expect that happiness of individual relies on the same matters. Let say, if one person is happy to start a business, then do other people need to start a business too? If a person is happy to be in love, the other person needs to be in love to be happy as well? If a couple is happy to buy a new house, the other couple needs to buy a house too?

It might be right at some point that we need what we need in life, but it is not necessarily to be at the same time. take your time and don't let others decide for you. You should know what is better for you and focus on that. I know it sounds easy but it is not easy at all. Pressure from the people around you can become a headache.

Okay, I'm not sure what else to write because sometimes I also have the same pressure. When I decided to do something else and it did not fit the community, it started to feel difficult. As much as I can focus on my aims and objectives, I try my best! Luckily I have family and friends who always support my decisions! Fuhhhh...


PS: Still enjoying ketupat and biskut semperit!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 2015!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA...
...to all! it's never too late to wish right? As we celebrate Aidilfitri for a month!

it was a very interesting Raya celebration for me and my family this year. All of my siblings were finally able to be back at home and celebrate together. It has been a while since everyone could make it on the first day of Raya at home. So it was very nice to have all of us together.

Next year, I'm not sure... Let's just hope for the best and appreciate what we have for now.

How about your Raya celebration? I heard it was amazing as well. Yay!

My handsome dad and Pretty Mom on the first day of Raya! (Duit raya please..haha..)

PS: Excited with the upcoming future. Are you excited as well?

I thought I was special but actually I am ordinary

There is no easy way to get what you want (or maybe there is ...aha). Even when you have what you want, you still need to make sure that you can secure it, or you might lose it!

just cross the bridge to find your way?

Then there is no easy way for us to keep trying? I guess so. Even on the day that we thought we were so lazy, actually we still struggle to just be lazy! aha...at least that's what I feel!

As long as you live, everyday is a new day for you to battle. Battle with your own self and desire, battle with the situation, battle with the surroundings and so on!

So no matter how weak you feel sometimes or how strong you feel on the next day, there will always be a way! Somehow, there will always a way. Even though you think your heart is broken. Even though you think that your mind is not capable to think anymore.

There will always be a way! I am ordinary in my own way! haha

PS: Ramadhan, why do you need to go so quickly?

never mind...

never mind... it hurts for now
never mind... somehow you will move on
never mind... it takes time and time will flies
never mind... keep strong even sometimes you're not sure what does it means
never mind... just be YOU

'the shoes that got away'

never... give up your dreams
never... stop trying
never... say that you will fail
never... be scared of people that put you down
never... feel that you are unworthy

mind... the effort
mind... the courage
mind... the patient
mind... the positive
mind... the kindness

trust
believe